Last minute thoughts before I go to bed...
Was wonderful having my son Jacob with me today. He said it was "...kind of boring", but he would "...do it again." I guess that's pre-teen language for. It was fun, but the waiting sucked!
People don't really understand how mentally draining it is to work with TV. It is crazy stimulating, but requires a concentration that I have never seen this up close before. In fact, it's one thing to work with tv and still another to work live. I have always focused on singing and not very much on tv because that has not been my choice of career, but not only am I working with tv, but jumping in head first and doing it LIVE. When I am feeling as though I am failing miserably, I will have to remind myself of that and perhaps, be a little kinder to myself.
I have read so many horrible things about myself on the net and in newspapers the last month or so. There are the Pro's and the Con's as with any endeavor. The Con's are that you can feel misunderstood sometimes. Get your feelings hurt. Be painted by strangers to be á horrible, ugly, rediculous person, when you know that you're not. 99% of the time I am not bothered by it. Other times I am more human and it can feel like a weight around my neck. The Pro's are that you stop caring about what people think more and more and focus on being the present. I love getting dolled up or stage! It is an artistic thing which lives in me and says, it is fun and stimulating to re-invent myself! Why not be somebody new every time? So you stop caring about what people think (because they are bound to hate it anyway) and just do your thing! So I have fun with clothes and makeup and experiment and go crazy. I am so boring otherwise in my gym clothes, ponytail and no make-up all week.
Next week, I will be even crazier!!
Hej Melissa!
Vill bara säga att du är fan BÄST, vackrast och underbarast! Det är en fröjd att se och höra dej som domare i tv.
Önskar dej nu en fin advent!
/Göran
Hej Melissa!
Jag håller fullständigt med Göran. Jag är en 21-årig tjej som absolut älskar dig. Du vågar stå för den du är,du är ärlig och säger precis som du tycker och du är vacker som en dag. Bry dig absolut inte om vad de negativa personerna säger om dig, de är oftast avundsjuka för att de inte vågar vara lika modig och ta ut svängarna precis som du. Du ska vara stolt över den du är. Världen behöver fler kvinnor som du! Tack för att du är den du är! Du är en stor förebild för mig.
Keep up the good work and keep on rocking the world!
Kramar
/Emma
I agree with what Göran says here and concerning the show last night with what Michael Nystås writes in Aftonbladet today
Keep on being yourself! You rock!
